Riga Euro Canard Love
My
documenting a great love affair I had while working in Europe making jet
fighters. This happened in one of my realities.
2016
January/May. I worked in CASA in Spain for 4 months making Eurofighters. Two guys
were interested in me. I ignored both as was very stressed doing the new aerospace
job. I left to see my dad in the Bangladesh. I said that if I ever go back to CASA
I'll get a boyfriend. That's just what I did. There were no real plans tho. My
bad there.
October 4
2021. I started at CASA again. Now I had four years in aerospace production.
May 19
2022. Pedro from instruments asked me out. We went out for two and a half
years.
2024
September
17. My dad died. The start of me changing. I stopped talking to Pedro and
calling him love. Turned to family/others for support not him.
September
23. We all flew to Dhaka and went my dad's wake. Pedro included.
Early
October I went to the doctor as I was depressed and not sleeping properly. I found
out I’m ill with heart. disease/angina/high blood/osteo in my back. It was all
genetic, my parents legacy.
November
4. I left Pedro. Very bad break up. He was ill with flu. He gave 1st resignation
letter in. He later rescinded it.
2025
January
onwards. I stopped personal conversations with him face to face, by etxt and
online. I had no calls this year off Pedro. I removed notifications off his
messenger massages/calls and blocked his mobile number/texts.
I started
avoiding him and hid from him. This went on for months. He found my hiding places.
I was often mad stressed or irate with me when he did. If he saw me going to
hide and said he wants to join me I was nasty to him and said go away or it's my
down time.
March. We
had a big row. He gave a second resignation letter in. Later rescinded it. I
talked him out of it and said he'd be starting again in a new job after three
and a half years in CASA. Making jet fighters is a very special job.
Pedro was
applying for jobs on a Saturday. He got my msg saying I had a twisted heart. He
jokes my heart is twisted the way I treated him! He stayed in CASA due to
this.
April? I
said don't msg me a lot to me. He was upset and thought I meant not at all. No,
not a lot I told him.
July. There
were more rows. One time I said don't sit next to me on the bench. Sit on the
other one. I was messaging another worker. He came and sat next to me. His
usual happy self. Pedro was upset andwent inside. He sent me a msg saying that's
hypocritical behaviour and not fair.
Pedro did
his first song about me. Cover photo was of me. I gave permission. He got a song
disc sent to my house. I wasn’t happy and didn't play it.
I was
cold and distant to him. I apologized for this in messenger.
July? Pedro
sat on the same bench as me on lunch. I was cold and distant to him no personal
talk. A worker joined us and sat on the other bench. I chatted and laughed with
him. I called him beshy or best friend. We looked at my day on FB. Pedro went
inside sent me a msg of how bad it is. You’re cold to me but close to your worker.
August or
September. Pedro went to my hiding place after he saw me going there. He
brought me a crystal off the mountain. I took it. The day later I sent him a
nasty msg saying I will report him to HR if he asks me again do I miss what we had
before together? And if he doesn’t respect my decision to be away from him.
September.
He called my best friend when he was applying for jobs. Talked to her for an
hour on me. Got her to ask me a few questions as he wanted to verify the
answers. Did Riga miss what we had? Still love him? My reply was I’m way passed
all that and have moved on. She asked me this for Pedro. I was mad at this. I
got my friend to block Pedro days later.
September
7. I blocked Pedro’s FB/IG accounts.
September
9. Pedro gave his final resignation letter in.
He saw me
in work and said he’s leaving. The told me this before and I said she knew. I
never mentioned my friend. He asked why she blocked him? I gave no real reply. I
still accepted his daily Snow Bear sweets. This went on for months. A sweet a
day. Some had stones in but he told me not to eat these.
October 3
Pedro’s last shift in Casa making Eurofighters. He saw me. I was busy on my
phone. He could've talked to me but didn't want to part after any potential
row. He saw me again minutes later going back off break. Told me this is his
last shift. Good luck I said. Keep in touch he replied. I never did.
October 6.
He signed his clearance in CASA. His second longest job was there for 4 years. He
left due to me treating him coldly and going No Contact. It was his time to
move on and protect his sanity. Not possible to work with an ex. If I was his
friend he'd stay. 75% of this is on me. He had his moods. I made my decisions
and he only found out due to my attitude changing. Eg sending no msgs or blocking
him. I never told him we were not friends.
October
30 Pedro started at Dassault making Rafales. Three there knew me. And out of 16
of them 6 were from CASA. Pete knew me. He was in CASA from 2011/18. I started
in CASA in 2013. Jiya saw us together on the bus in 24. Brown knew me and was
told I’m one to watch as a supervisor.
December.
Pedro saw my old August FB public post in Google where I said I had an old
flame and think of him at times. And want to be with him but can live without this
being so. It was a deep emotional confession. It's not about Pedro. I never
told him this while together. The old flame never worked out before. It was
years or decades ago.
December
10. Pedro went to Madrid on a trip. He walked past CASA as I finished at about
7am. There was no sign of me or anyone he knew. There are other things not on
this list. He still writes his Riga songs based on me. On album 5 now. My
legacy he says. The character based on Riga. He’s still sad on me. He sent me
an email and said the rejection is the worst at me not wanting to be friends or
talk to him. Months of it. I said we were friends but we never were. I was one he
wanted to keep hold of. Instead there is nothing. The longer it goes on the
harder it will be to be friends. All this mess would need talking about. I
would need to apologize how I treated him in 2025. And start having personal
conversation with him again. Much is wrong and he doesn't think it can be
fixed. Why would he want a person who treated him so badly in 2025 in his
life?! Due to him still loving me he wants me in his life. I am Riga and I
moved on. Pedro has to move too for his sanity and life. He wishes me all the
best and hopes I meet someone right for me. Then he will finally be free of me
in that regard. I did this list to be clear of the happenings and dates. I'm
already forgetting some. I will look up my old flame in Dhaka. Maybe…
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