Riga Euro Canard Love

 

 

 

Riga Euro Canard Love

My documenting a great love affair I had while working in Europe making jet fighters. This happened in one of my realities.

 

2016 January/May. I worked in CASA in Spain for 4 months making Eurofighters. Two guys were interested in me. I ignored both as was very stressed doing the new aerospace job. I left to see my dad in the Bangladesh. I said that if I ever go back to CASA I'll get a boyfriend. That's just what I did. There were no real plans tho. My bad there. 

 

October 4 2021. I started at CASA again. Now I had four years in aerospace production. 

 

May 19 2022. Pedro from instruments asked me out. We went out for two and a half years. 

 

2024 

September 17. My dad died. The start of me changing. I stopped talking to Pedro and calling him love. Turned to family/others for support not him. 

 

September 23. We all flew to Dhaka and went my dad's wake. Pedro included. 

 

Early October I went to the doctor as I was depressed and not sleeping properly. I found out I’m ill with heart. disease/angina/high blood/osteo in my back. It was all genetic, my parents legacy.

 

November 4. I left Pedro. Very bad break up. He was ill with flu. He gave 1st resignation letter in. He later rescinded it.

 

2025 

January onwards. I stopped personal conversations with him face to face, by etxt and online. I had no calls this year off Pedro. I removed notifications off his messenger massages/calls and blocked his mobile number/texts.

 

I started avoiding him and hid from him. This went on for months. He found my hiding places. I was often mad stressed or irate with me when he did. If he saw me going to hide and said he wants to join me I was nasty to him and said go away or it's my down time. 

 

March. We had a big row. He gave a second resignation letter in. Later rescinded it. I talked him out of it and said he'd be starting again in a new job after three and a half years in CASA. Making jet fighters is a very special job.

 

Pedro was applying for jobs on a Saturday. He got my msg saying I had a twisted heart. He jokes my heart is twisted the way I treated him! He stayed in CASA due to this. 

 

April? I said don't msg me a lot to me. He was upset and thought I meant not at all. No, not a lot I told him.

 

July. There were more rows. One time I said don't sit next to me on the bench. Sit on the other one. I was messaging another worker. He came and sat next to me. His usual happy self. Pedro was upset andwent inside. He sent me a msg saying that's hypocritical behaviour and not fair. 

 

Pedro did his first song about me. Cover photo was of me. I gave permission. He got a song disc sent to my house. I wasn’t happy and didn't play it. 

 

I was cold and distant to him. I apologized for this in messenger. 

 

July? Pedro sat on the same bench as me on lunch. I was cold and distant to him no personal talk. A worker joined us and sat on the other bench. I chatted and laughed with him. I called him beshy or best friend. We looked at my day on FB. Pedro went inside sent me a msg of how bad it is. You’re cold to me but close to your worker. 

 

August or September. Pedro went to my hiding place after he saw me going there. He brought me a crystal off the mountain. I took it. The day later I sent him a nasty msg saying I will report him to HR if he asks me again do I miss what we had before together? And if he doesn’t respect my decision to be away from him. 

 

September. He called my best friend when he was applying for jobs. Talked to her for an hour on me. Got her to ask me a few questions as he wanted to verify the answers. Did Riga miss what we had? Still love him? My reply was I’m way passed all that and have moved on. She asked me this for Pedro. I was mad at this. I got my friend to block Pedro days later.

 

September 7. I blocked Pedro’s FB/IG accounts.

 

September 9. Pedro gave his final resignation letter in. 

 

He saw me in work and said he’s leaving. The told me this before and I said she knew. I never mentioned my friend. He asked why she blocked him? I gave no real reply. I still accepted his daily Snow Bear sweets. This went on for months. A sweet a day. Some had stones in but he told me not to eat these. 

 

October 3 Pedro’s last shift in Casa making Eurofighters. He saw me. I was busy on my phone. He could've talked to me but didn't want to part after any potential row. He saw me again minutes later going back off break. Told me this is his last shift. Good luck I said. Keep in touch he replied. I never did. 

 

October 6. He signed his clearance in CASA. His second longest job was there for 4 years. He left due to me treating him coldly and going No Contact. It was his time to move on and protect his sanity. Not possible to work with an ex. If I was his friend he'd stay. 75% of this is on me. He had his moods. I made my decisions and he only found out due to my attitude changing. Eg sending no msgs or blocking him. I never told him we were not friends. 

 

October 30 Pedro started at Dassault making Rafales. Three there knew me. And out of 16 of them 6 were from CASA. Pete knew me. He was in CASA from 2011/18. I started in CASA in 2013. Jiya saw us together on the bus in 24. Brown knew me and was told I’m one to watch as a supervisor. 

 

December. Pedro saw my old August FB public post in Google where I said I had an old flame and think of him at times. And want to be with him but can live without this being so. It was a deep emotional confession. It's not about Pedro. I never told him this while together. The old flame never worked out before. It was years or decades ago.

 

December 10. Pedro went to Madrid on a trip. He walked past CASA as I finished at about 7am. There was no sign of me or anyone he knew. There are other things not on this list. He still writes his Riga songs based on me. On album 5 now. My legacy he says. The character based on Riga. He’s still sad on me. He sent me an email and said the rejection is the worst at me not wanting to be friends or talk to him. Months of it. I said we were friends but we never were. I was one he wanted to keep hold of. Instead there is nothing. The longer it goes on the harder it will be to be friends. All this mess would need talking about. I would need to apologize how I treated him in 2025. And start having personal conversation with him again. Much is wrong and he doesn't think it can be fixed. Why would he want a person who treated him so badly in 2025 in his life?! Due to him still loving me he wants me in his life. I am Riga and I moved on. Pedro has to move too for his sanity and life. He wishes me all the best and hopes I meet someone right for me. Then he will finally be free of me in that regard. I did this list to be clear of the happenings and dates. I'm already forgetting some. I will look up my old flame in Dhaka. Maybe…

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