Riga Pedro's Sanity

Riga Pedro's Sanity 

Riga ender her relationship with Pedro due to him being married. She no longer wanted to live a lie and she wanted to live by her dead father's values. She tried to be friends with Pedro as she still cared for him. He also cared for Riga. At this both she and he failed. Riga felt guilty due to time with Pedro hiking the mountains. This was time away from her father and her daughters. Riga only realized this several months later. It wasn't right away. Her attitude and behaviour changed to Pedro. She was cold irate stressed bitter. At times she apologized for being cold and distant. She did this face to face and in a message. He was witnessing her survivor's guilt. He tried to reach out multiple times to her. Riga had out up impenetrable walls. He said they'd known one another for three years. He said what will it take to be friends? Add me again in FB. Friendship can't be forced she said. All of this was very interesting. This behaviour. It was documenting her terrible journey after her dad died. Her falling apart, trying to cope and much more. Plus Pedro falling apart. It partly ended when he quit the job after four years. Then he was physically away from Riga. On his last shift there he saw her. She'd been to her locker to get her phone check her messages. Not his. For he looked. He could've said Hi and this is my last shift here. He hesitated. Why? He was unsure. He didn't want to part on an argument. Bad words were no good. So he went back to his work station. His TL said go take a break. He did and saw Riga going back to work. He said it's my last shift. Good luck she said. If he had talked to her what would she of said? Would she of kept the walls there and no personal connection? Of would she say she missed him and be her old caring self. The old Riga he missed? Or be the 2925 Riga. And the reason he was leaving his second longest job. If she had talked to him and not treated him this way, he'd of stayed. Not resigned. They failed at being friends. His terrible moods pushed her away and pissed her off. Her side of things was 75% of it. He apologized for his moods. She never said sorry for blocking him or not messaging him. That was that. Mostly. Riga still affected Pedro. Six months after leaving the job he still missed her. There was no word off her in that time. He tried to get a new sim number for his phone. It wouldn't work. It did in two other phones. The settings were out. Was it the universe saying don't call her? You are still emotionally vulnerable. Her capabilities were immense. Riga has his details. He will wait and let her contact him. If she ever does. He doesn't trust her. From her an apology and explanation is needed. And a new start. All that takes time will and effort. It's easy to do it her way No Contact. Though Pedro missed her he needs to save his sanity. That's why he left his old job. Five months into the new job it's hard. Month five is decision time. Is he regularized or does he quit and get a new job? Time will tell and he will do his best. If need be he has plans for a new job. And he writes about Riga to make art, to understand and to save his sanity. He wishes her all the best. This chapter is closed. The book they wrote is done. It will continue in the future. Later in this life or the next. Not just now. 

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